From the window of the house I lived in as a child, I could see the Church of the Nativity of the Blessed Virgin Mary (B.V.M.). I loved looking at the cross and thought the church was very beautiful. I also used to walk by the church to get home from school. Despite coming from a Taoist family, I have strong feelings for the church and a deep curiosity to know Jesus.

But I didn’t know any Catholic friends and I didn’t dare to approach anyone from the church although there were times when parishioners came to my home to talk to us about the faith, with brochures of Mary, Jesus and the Holy Spirit as a dove.

In the many years I spent working, I never once met a Catholic friend who would speak about God to me. Instead, I found a Protestant friend who brought Jesus Christ into my life. I was very touched by her and went with her to her church for service. I grew closer to Jesus and started to develop a strong relationship with him. I was even prepared to be baptized into their church.

However events at a retreat left me uneasy. I dreamt of Mother Mary at the Nativity of the B.V.M. parish. I have never dreamt of her before and was very confused when I awoke. I was really unhappy and left the retreat only to return to it a few years later when I met my friend again. But once more, Mother Mary came to me in my dream. And once more, I left the retreat.

Recurring dreams of Mother Mary and the Church of the Nativity of the B.V.M. eventually led me to reject the baptism I was supposed to go through at my friend’s church. Deep in my heart, I felt a very strong calling from Mother Mary and a desire to respond to her. I didn’t know if I should be a Protestant or a Catholic. It was a difficult time. I couldn’t concentrate on my work, my life. I checked out the parish website but it was down. Unwilling to give up, I continued my search for God, until I got my sponsor’s number. This was when my RCIA journey began – the beginning of my life.

I dreamt of Mother Mary a last time the night after my Rite of Election. That night, she smiled at me. Right now, I am looking forward to my baptism!n


Rafaela Eva Tan, 26

Church of the Nativity

of the Blessed Virgin Mary

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